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Proudness!!!

21 Nov

Look at this, another post and only a week to wait this time. I know, I spoil you all.

This week I am feeling proudness, (I dunno if that’s even a word to be honest, but it’s how I’m feeling).

Coming out of one’s comfort zone is never easy and a lot of people don’t know it has taken me many, many years to over come my shy side, 98% of people who know me now have never even seen that shy side. The person who would walk in to a room and be crippled with fear to even talk to any one, let along be a leader.

Over the years I’ve taken massive steps to over come this. When I left school I went to a college where none of my school friends went in order to force myself to meet new people.

I saw a life coach, I went on a confidence and assertiveness course.

I’ve worked really hard to put that shy, scared person away. I do jobs which require me to deal with people. I love people, but I often worry what they think of me, I’m too tall, they’re going to call me a giant. I won’t have anything worth saying. etc, etc, etc. I’m sure you have all been there.

But yes, the point of this is, on Tuesday evening, my second week of Run Dem Crew. Head Honcho, Daddy Dark, asked me if I know the way to the Emirates and will I lead my group. I froze and 6billion thoughts go through my head in the space of about 30 seconds.

I even did that thing when you don’t actually believe someone is talking to you and go “who me?” ha ha

Then I just put all of that aside and said yes.

so yeah, 10 minutes later, I’m leading a group of 6 amazing ladies on the mean streets of London. Man, I was poohing my panties lol.

We did 5 miles. We didn’t quite make it to the Stadium; we ran a pace that was comfortable for us, got back in good time and most of all, had fun.

Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaan, I feel proud of me.

I’m so grateful I was given that opportunity. Well and truly out of my comfort zone but loving it.

Me and the RDC ladies

I’m also proud of the way I gave it my all at Run Dem Crew West on Monday. We did track. I don’t even think I think I did track at school, so for me this was virgin territory. 10x 100m at 60%, 5 x 200m at 60% then the last 50m full pelt and finally 4 x 400 metres at 60% then the last 100m at full pelt.

I actually, almost vomited. That shizz was hard. But for me, I knew that I had to at least try my best. How am I ever going to do a half marathon unless I push myself. I know I’m a plodder and I really need to step out of my comfort zone and push hard. Push hard I did.

I think this pic says it all!

that’s me!

I wasn’t expecting too much at weigh in this week. It’s that time all ladies hate and after all the free cheese and booze  samples at the Ideal home show – Xmas edition I was going to be grateful to stay the same. Amazingly I dropped another 1lb and a half.

Roll on the tears. I not only smashed my 15%. That’s right, I have lost over 15% of my totally body weight, I have finally hit that 3 stone marker.

One massive hurdle overcome

Most of you know that the past few months have been really hard for me and I wanted to be at this point two months ago. 11months later, 3 stone down and it feels great. I’m welling up as I write this.

I don’t think anyone can know how I feel at this part of my journey. I know people have done the same before me and people will do the same after, but no one else is me and I am not them.

11 months ago I couldn’t imagine that I would be 3 stone lighter.

So yay me, but the hard work isn’t over. To get to the top of a healthy weight range according to my BMI I need to be 12st12lbs. Yes I know I’m very tall and very curvy and all that. I am talking medically here.

My next goal is to get to my 20%. 14.9lbs. I’d love to get there for my year anniversary of being back on track, 2nd Janaury 2013.  From there I’ll look at my 25% and so on.

I still feel overweight and until I feel comfortable I will continue to get the weight down.  and that’s the main thing, how I feel.

Paris and running will keep me motivated. As will all my inspirational and supportive friends.

I ain’t done yet peoples. Proudness won’t let me finish yet.

Big loves

LeeLee

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